*Baby Girl laying beside me as I blog.
Some days Cranio can be all too consuming. I went on Craniokids.org today to see if there were any posts that related to Baby Girl that may help us or where I could help them. I came across a few posts of teenagers/adults with untreated Saggital Cranio. I was hooked. I couldn't stop reading their posts and jumping from one group to another in hopes to see a picture. Now I really just feel completely drained.
I have to make sure I don't get too obsessed. Its so easy to obsess about her future. Will the surgery work? Will she need more surgeries? Will her head look nice and round when she is an adult? Will her eyesight be damaged? Will her hearing be damaged? Will she be delayed developmentally? Will she be teased and have poor self esteem because of this? Will she be happy?
Right now Baby Girl is happy, ahead of schedule and absolutely perfect. I don't want to do anything that will change that. Yet, if we do nothing it could change everything. Its such a hard situation to be in. No parent wants to cause any type of pain to come upon their child yet if we do nothing it could harm her the rest of her life.
Choices. These are all the feelings I feel right now, tonight. I know what needs to be done and we will go through with it. I just love her so much. She is my heart. All I can do is pray for the strength to help her through this trial right now. Oh, how I pray that I will be strong enough.